Emotionally week ?? Find out why..

1. You need strength from your loved one, but you don't get it. You find yourself alone.
          You should expect less and do more. If you love 'em, you shouldn't expect a  lot. And if you do but you don't get it, don't complain. Just have faith that no matter what, you are not alone. Love yourself and live your life.


2. You are not mentally strong.
          Not your mistake. Don't worry. Just be calm, relax a li'l. Take a deep breath and think about the positive aspect of it which might make you happy. Staying happy is the goal, thinking positive is the mantra. 


3. You are not aware of the real-bad-world.
          I understand. It's not necessary that an early age, your exposure to the world is enough for its introduction. Be strong and face the world. I know they'll torment you to the core, but don't lose hope. Fight. Show 'em that you're no less. You are the best.


4. You've lost hope.
          Losing hope is the biggest mistake you'd make then. No matter how miserable you are or, you are alone or the whole world is against you, you need to have the hope and keep saying one simple thing, "God is with me, he will make it right for me". And trust me, everything will be right. 


Yes you got it right. now you know it. Gather yourself, hold yourself tight and give yourself a chance. 
Keep smiling. :)

A new year is celebrated 'cz for some people is a start of the fresh beginning. For some, its a hope of determination of completing the incomplete tasks and for some its another reason to just party. 
(I hate the last one though.) For me it is a new beginning. A beginning for a new out look.


Call it a Bucket List or just a Resolution List. My sister insisted me to make one. So whatever it is. It's here.

#1. Study Harder
I do study but somehow i fail to become a scholar. So no matter how much the quantity is, but the study should have the best quality so that i score good and it stays with me for a long time. It has to make me a smart person with knowledge and not some nerd.


#2. Workout 
In the year 2011, I've gained a lot of weight. plus, i realized that my cardio is suffering as well. So this year, I have to workout to lose the extra fat and to have a healthy heart. No no, not size zero or anything, just a perfect and healthy body figure. 


#3. Music n Reading
These are two of my favorite hobbies. In 2012, I want to do great justice to 'em. I want to read more novels. I will mostly look for autobiographies, history and mythology (along with some fiction). And music. Apart from listening. I'll get back to my guitar and get a violin. As WE are in love with it. :)

#4. Meditation
I had to start meditating this December 'cz of some unfathomable experiences. But I couldn't find the real state of peace. So I'm gonna keep it going so that I find the results as soon as possible and let you know.


#5. Help and learn
It was in my mind since past 2 months that I want to experience the needy. I see 'em from far. I interacted with 'em as well and I realized that they are the best teachers in some or the other way, for some or the other thing. So I will volunteer in an old-age home and a handicap school to feel 'em and learn new ways of life that the normal people can't teach.


#6. To be inspired and admire.
I want to pick up at least 3 people from anywhere in the world and at any post, personal contacts or famous categories, whom I could admire and get inspired and give my life a right path.


#7. Give way to positivism.
With all the downs and almost no ups in my life, I had become a li'l depressed and negative. H.V. helped me through and gave me a hope. And suddenly my life seemed meaningful. Things didn't get perfect but they moved towards getting better. So I want to get more positive. I want to have more faith. And for that, I'll start reading parts from The Bible and The Gita. I'll read books on The Buddha and Swami Vivekananda teaching. I know things won't get perfect but at least my outlook will be perfect. 


#8. Find a peaceful place.
I don't mind announcing that I can't really find a peaceful corner in my house. And in a city like Delhi, it is difficult to find one. But I won't give up. There has to be some place in this city where there is just you and nature and no worries and sorrows. I'll keep looking for it.


#9. Reduce my future planning.
I am a very very planned person. I am kind of stubborn with making 'em work. and when/if they don't, the whole ladder is disturbed. So I've decided that my future is in my hands. I'll make up for past mistakes, enhance the present and look out for the future later. But I'll keep my aims up high. 


#10. I have to keep blogging. 
In the previous year, it was all sad n upset. And some of the good things weren't to be written on web so I maintained a diary for that. But I don't want this year to be like that. I want every experience to be so good that I can write it down here.


So most of my year would be based mostly on continuation, improvement and exploration. 
I'll keep updating you.


Hope you all have a great year ahead !!

Lazy Morning

Good morning readers

I am so lazy today but got so much of work. Why the college people have exams half the time of the year. This sucks big time. I have to study, cook, go out, laundry, dress my hair. MOST IMP - I've to go to the parlor.


But I'm so damn lazy and the maid is so damn noisy. Somebody tell her to shut up. Ah talking about cooking. Its been a while I've started cooking. Its not fun until and unless the food is good. And trust me, I'm not that bad. I guess I got that from my mom. She's the world's best cook. well for every kid, her mom and dad are the best with super powers. But trust me, my mom, even without super powers, is the world's best cook. Lately, she's been out of town so m cooking for myself. And I'm happy that my food is k-i-n-d-a satisfying. 


But I don't feel like getting out of the bed. So damn lazy I can be sometimes. Varun is right, I've crossed all heights of laziness.

Let the li'l bird fly.

Don't always make her think and cry.

Her tears aren't yet dry.

What I can do is just wry.

Come on, give it a try, let the li'l bird fly.

When you just watch and learn..

I know I'm updating late, but alot of things happened. Skipping the things and the reasons, there's one thing that i've been noticing. I have been losing my friends. Whatever may be the reason. I don't care. I don't care that I lost 'em either. Infact I'm happy 'cz I'm out of 'em.

I was sitting in the canteen today and the students from my college were sitting and talking some shit. So these people are actually the "wannabes". Because they keep talking about boozing, make outs and abuses. Dumb that is. They are more interested in other people's personal lives. Likewise, once I was out with some of my girlfriends. They were my best girlfriends. I used to miss 'em but now..naaaaaaaaaaah !!
Once in the metro when I went out with 'em, they were screaming and talking and laughing out loud. That wasn't a part of my decency. Now when I travel in the metro and see a chunk of such girls I feel that when I used to be with my girls, the decent people must have thought exactly the same for me.

So now I've actually realised that watching and learning is the best way of self analysis. I did it and realised and stepping ahead for a better life !!